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Among these is every human being's central need to express herself, to show herself to the world as she really is --- in word, in gesture, in behavior, in art --- in every genuine expression, beginning with the baby's cry.

    For the person who, as a child, had to hide her true feelings from herself and others, this first step into the open produces much anxiety, yet she feels a great need to throw over her former restraints. The first experiences do not always lead to freedom but quite often lead instead to a repetition of the person's childhood situation, in whitch she will experience feelings of agonizing shame and painful nakedness as an accompaniment to her genuine expressions of her true self. With the infallibility of a sleepwalker, she will seek out those who, like her parents (though for different reasons), certainly cannot understand her. Because of her blindness caused by repression, she will try to make herself understandable to precisely these people --- trying to make possible what cannot be.

The Drama of the Gifted Child: The Search for the True Self, Third Edition (English Edition) Alice Miller p.83

 本当の自己を表現することの恐怖や不安はよくわかる。

正直、信頼していない人、利用しようとしている人に対しては、それはできない。

そして、自己表現をしようとしても、不安のために、子供の頃のシチュエーションを繰り返してしまう、というのも分かる。(おそらく陥っている。)

 

 

Moreover, compassion for her mother's sad life history had hindered Linda from feeling her own plight; the image of the poor mother had blocked her feeling.

The Drama of the Gifted Child: The Search for the True Self, Third Edition (English Edition) Alice Miller p.84

 これも非常によく分かる。

この同情心のために、自分の感情がどこにあるのかわからなくなる。

そして不調に陥る。